An American Autistic Living in Thailand Writes on “Why Gardening May Have Saved My Life”
She doesn’t flinch. “We need money! We need a lot of training and it costs a lot of money…We’re not lost. We’re not this little country that has our heads in the sand.”
Almost a year ago I resigned from the Board of Directors of NEXT for Autism (the benefactors of HBO’s celebrity-filled “Night of Too Many Stars”). And it was an especially disappointing divorce under circumstances tied to my being the only autistic Board member they’d had in the years I was with them. Well, the wrong hands appear to have gotten hold of the long-ish resignation letter that outlined my concerns with NEXT for Autism. In an effort to get ahead of the situation, control the narrative myself, and prevent any misinterpretation about how I intended to leave, I’ve leaked the document before do the rather unhappy folks who got their hands on my document.
Today, fewer people seem to want to use the word, “coward.” We know so much more about why our emotions can cause us to freeze, to run away, to fail to come to the aid of a loved one, to desert, or to lie. And while explanation is still not justification, our increased knowledge of executive functioning, emotional regulation, and the long-term damage lurking within all negative reinforcements…has granted us infinitely more humane clarification about why “cowardice” occurs.